Isolated thoughts

Month: January, 2015

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It is the last day of 2015 and I’ve decided to jot down my resolutions for the year. You’re probably thinking “why the hell is she doing this after 1/12 of the year has gone by?”. Well, I’ve been busy living my life and deciding what needs to be done. I’m still in my transition […]

Takeaways from Tokyo

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Have you ever seen the sky so blue? Yes, yes I have. Its just that most of the time, we don’t aim high enough to notice it.

Luck

There was a baby bat outside the room today. I thought it was a frog. But it’s pretty cute. Am quite afraid that it’s lost and won’t survive. Its like a palmful of black fur sigh it’s adorable.

It’s said that it brings luck but looking at what I’ve messed up in my pathetic existence so far I doubt it.

Decided directions

Exhausted but my soul is happy with a catch up with friends. So much has happened in lives. It’s good to set aside time to rest and to have fun. All work and no play makes an unhappy man.

Goodnight world. I’m off to JB for a day trip (after work, no less) and I’m hoping to find some conservative pants and workout shorts because my wardrobe is dying.

Why don’t you be you

Today was pretty bad (in a good sense). I had four periods today which means that I was mostly busy from the beginning of the day till the end! Most of the time my time table is terribly empty and boring. It’s not that I’m not thankful for that, it’s just dreadfully dull especially when you have little to do.

So by the time the last hour came around I was so exhausted from the lack of sleep (self-imposed) and the drain of working that a kid noticed and was like “cher you have panda eyes”. And I was like oh okay and at that point in time I really felt the swollen feeling and the difficulty of opening my eyes so I knew I must’ve looked like utter shit. And he looked pretty concerned but as usual I trolled him and said “it’s because of y’all (that I don’t have enough sleep) and he looked so remorseful I felt bad but of course I told him I was joking in the end.

I have a feeling that I’m going to end up in lots of trouble from now on so goodbye early self dismissals and time to work hard. And goodbye voice. I realised that I don’t have a good voice for this job/it’s going to die because the kids are loud and I cannot beat them and it’s difficult to present in a large, open space.

Let all go well.

School rule blues

Who ever thought that I would end up doing this during the holidays? As a student, I have to admit that I’ve a pretty bad record/stirred up some serious crap in my days. It’s kind of eye opening to be in the other side of the fence these past few days. But being the lazy ass I am I’m dreading work/so tired already.

It’s been a tough couple of days. No Molly coddling at all. No company. I feel like I’m in an awkward position due to my position. I’m not that much older. I’m not that qualified. I’ve no idea what I’m doing to be honest.

Travelling over an hour every single day is draining me so badly too. I feel like quitting but I can’t so I guess here’s to 39 more days in office hell. I discovered a really nice spot with an amazing view today though. Might consider spending some more time up there these days. Also realised that there was a library! Seems like I’ve found my hideaway for the next few days.

Japan gloom

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Kanazawa (12 December 2014)
We made a day stop over in Kanazawa on our way to Takayama. It’s a pretty small place. We stayed in dormy inn which was a stone’s throw from the train station. Awesome, considering how bloody cold it was.

We immediately checked in and headed to the market to look about. The crabs there go for ridiculous prices. For a non-seafood lover, it was kinda sad because most of the food is seafood. I think the town was really pretty though – it had several design shops along the streets and sculptures littering the town.

After a late lunch, we headed to the garden. It kinda sucked though – it was raining and so chilly so the scenery wasn’t that great. The fog blocked the mountains although you could see the snow. There was minimal English too. It’s a touristy place so obviously everything requires an entry fee. If only we visited when it was spring or really snowy weather.

After a couple of hours there, we walked all the way back to the hotel. I was dying for a hot bath and thank goodness the inn had one! I can’t exactly remember how it looked like anymore to be honest. It’s quite saddening because I really quite liked it. I think it’s one of the more minimal ones although it had both indoor and outdoor sections.

After that night, we headed to Takayama! On the way we found a Lush shop in one of the malls in Kanazawa so we went crazy because it’s way cheaper there. Almost half the price of that in Singapore so we stocked up on it like it’s our dying day. I got my favourite Happy Hippy whilst the bro got much more including the Flying Fox which smells delicious to me now at home. We got large bottles so that’s a huge saving in total. Got Bohemian Bar Soap too (half price again) and it’s wonderful. I shall do another post about the products once I really use them all.

At Takayama we checked into some hotel (I forgot the name). It was snowing pretty heavily when I got there so it was kinda awesome. The hotel was huge – several tour groups were patronising it and there were a total of 5 onsens. Being totally kiasu and Singaporean we totally tried all the onsens ha. It was pretty cool – being in the open and having snow pelting down on you whilst you’re soaking.

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Sadly, we checked out the next day and headed out to the mountains before we had to catch the train to Tokyo. We rented a car and drive through the snow to do so. Had a good snow fight up in the mountains and was a total public nuisance but hey, some people just don’t know how to have fun.

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And it was snowing that badly when we left. Amazing right?

Till the next time, Tokyo.

The Codeine Scene

My face is burning up like and I feel like my body temperature is jacking up. Its the super-bloody tired burning up kinda thing since I woke at 6.15 am. I cannot believe that this is my reality for the next 9 weeks. I really hope that it’s an enriching and fufiling experience. So I’ve been awake for 18 hours – no wonder I died when I went to shop for “office casual”. Shopping is hell these days. Its become a chore. I’m more keen on skincare/soap these days instead of clothes because I frankly cannot bear to spend so much money on clothes. Fashion passes but your body is for life.

I need to crawl up at 8+ tomorrow for a wedding so excuse me. Reflections will come sometime later I suppose. I’ve yet to draw up my new years resolution anyway ugh.

Excited!

Weddings take up so much time I literally spent the whole day partaking in the festivities. It was so elaborate and time consuming I cannot. At the dinner reception I was kinda getting drunk meh sloshing about in white whine, champagne and red wine. It was kinda fun getting drunk though it’s like everything is funny, less inhibited and fuzzy haze of drunknwss I’m sorry I have no other words to describe the feeling.

Then I felt sleepy and crashed once I got home. I woke feeling sleepy as hell. Weddings are mad shit. Can’t imagine how the bride and groom and parents and friends really suffer to out on such a show/to organize everuthing. When it’s my turn, it’s gonna be short, simple and then boom off to travel the world with the future beau.

But then again I’m the first child so we’ll see how that goes. I mean, what’s the point of spending >$10k on a day right? The wastage and excessive amount of money spent is so harmful and useless.

Snake eye with a slight smile

I saw the most amazing image of a work of a dragon’s eye. It amazes me how patient and dedicated people are (maybe they’re just insanely talented at sketching and coloring it all in). Makes me wish I could do that too…

Training for the past two days and it’s exhausting. I really need to keep abreast of my other commitments and make time for them. On the bright side, I found someone else who’s interning at the same school as me! It’s great news for someone who was ready to be alone for 2 months.

I’m trying to make a list of goals for this year. Till next time.

On another note…

I’ve been looking up courses online and asking around. I’m really glad that I’ve older cousins and adults around me helping me in any way that they can – their advice, offers to help and anecdotes are so invaluable at this point in time. When I asked my aunt if I could move in with her if I took up a certain course (as the school was near her place and if I lived at home I’d die travelling everyday) she said yes with like no hesitation. Like who would accept having a freeloader like me.

The messed up applications just make everything worse. Of course I’d love to study overseas. But is it worth it? Financially, imo, it definitely isn’t. Maybe it’s for the best. I’m just hedging my bets and I’m going to wait for my results. Maybe start on a couple of essays for applications. And it’s time I really sit down and think.

I’m thinking of getting a MacBook pro. A good, functioning laptop is needed these days.

I just keep spending time with my dog trying to train her (lol) and accidentally let her sleep in my room these days. So I’m trying to wean her off now and it’s currently sucking.

I kinda can’t wait for my internship to begin. Then purpose and need would drive this lethargy away. I’m kinda glad that I accepted it anyway, it is an avenue I don’t mind serving in next time. I’ve been flirting with the idea of going freelance these days too, though.
Make it work.