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by Jolyn Low

You will be ok, Jolyn. Everything will be okay.

I am starting my last week of farm placements at the last place I imagine myself to be doing a placement at – a polo horse place close to home.

Honey turns 7 in a few days but I don’t feel like she has aged much. I’m halfway relieved but I feel like a terrible person for I am unlikely to come back and look after her in her senior years. If my math works out she will be around for another 8 or so, which is ages but I fear that she shall leave me before I ever reach a significant milestone in my life.

Whatever happened to having her with me if/when I get married? And wanting to come back and care for her when she’s old and fragile?

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